Below are the 3 most recent journal entries recorded in dragonboy81's LiveJournal:

Sunday, April 17th, 2005
11:50 pm	Diet Diet Diet !!!! Was really a tiring day altogether. Yesterday was playing around with my new ipod till 2.30 am ! and got woken up at 7.30 am by my parents who were making alot of noise. Didn't go back to sleep, playing with my ipod again hahaa ..... Went to teach tuition and it was a hell boring session ! Sometimes I would just wish to stand up and shout "PLEASE HAVE SOME ENTHUSIASM IN YOUR LEARNING" !!!! too bad I need the petty cash for my high maintenance !!! Today I was counting how much left in the bank and BOO HOO !!!! Been really spending WAY WAY too much. Need someone to teach me how to save ! or at least subsidise my credit card bills hahahahaa . I guess I clocked about 2000 bucks just this month including the ipod and my GNC stuff and dining and ............ Gonna prepare my IA report really soon. Submission date is 22nd May !!!!! and I am just 30% done !!! .... Oh yeah, today I was at the gym and was measuring my fat content !!! I ALMOST FAINTED !!!!!! Strict diet .... celery, carrot, vegetables , no fried stuff !!!! OH GOD ! GIVE ME A BOD ! .... maybe I wasn't gifted academically, maybe I am lazy..... I used to complain why I didn't have a car and as such. These periods of time, I am beginning to understand sometimes we just took things much for granted. Watched the NKF show today and found that there are so many poor people out there struggling for their livehood. I would really want to do my part for them, giving love to those who needs it. I am a sick patient too, someone who longs to be loved and cherised. When will the day come ? sigh ...... Current Mood: complacent (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 16th, 2005
12:37 am	A tiring day indeed Well, today is really a tiring day for me. Not physically but mentally. Life is so much full of decisions to be made and in fact, I am kinda tired of all these. It may seems from my look I am someone who looks young and vibrant but I feel I am just a tired old man at heart. If only life is not about making painful decisions and as such. Love was built to bring happiness I was taught, but I never long expect it would bring so much pain and scars. I am still recovering from my scars....I just hope I can stand up and walk again, to a brighter future.Today was a talk about my specialization, my friends were all talking about getting honours and such. I sort of woke up and found that in pursue for love the past 3 years, I gave up my studies. I may not even get a third class honors....sigh....I told myself I will have to work hard the next semester for the whole year in order to do something for myself. The past 3 years I been living for someone, treating that person as my universe. When that was gone, I was plunged into darkness and self misery. Thanks to all my friends who were always there for me. Even now, I am living in the shadow of the darkness, I tell myself I shall walk out one day and see the sun, never will i hide under the shadow of someone else. The future, where does it lies for me ? The future, who shall walk with me ? Current Mood: nostalgic (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 13th, 2005
3:36 pm	Shitty Day In office right now, went to run two errands just this morning and after lunch, people are all pushing those stupid work they supposed to do for themselves to me sigh .....what to do, when you are the lowest lifeform in the office, you are just like a PIECE OF SHIT ! Wish I could be home and be pig ..... Suddenly, just feel my life is kinda empty .... don't ask me why, maybe I miss the feeling of falling in love, maybe I have lost my focus and goals in life, I feel so jaded right now.....sigh..... Checked my bank account just now and realized I have overspent !!!! Looks like this month I got to go on diet and start eating Grass..... MOOO MOOO !!!! Feeling sleepy now...... listening to 933, Lin JunJie song very nice !!! I don't listen to Chinese music but nowadays I been listening to it... Just don't know why, maybe I am influenced by my new friend, you know who you are =P. I can't agree more that Chinese music is much more sentimental and expressive than most English songs. One thing is it's always about breaking up and lost of love...so sad.... I am such a pessimistic kinda person, sometimes, i just feel like crying when I listen to such songs !!!! Boo hoo !!!!! ..... Guess it's time to go, boss asking me to rush for things, shall update again later tonight ... I HATE WORK ! I WANNA GO BACK SCHOOL STUDY Current Mood: depressed (1 Comment |Comment on this)